New changes, fresh events

Without preamble, here's what's changed since the last post:

--I've moved back to "da aina," that is, Oahu, where I grew up. The decision that spawned this was difficult and hard to discuss, but move I did.
--As a result of this move, I'm feeling very conflicted and really am not any closer to resolving my emotions (both good and bad).
--On the bright side, I am working a job as a Visuals Specialist that I enjoy very much (most of the time). :)
--School loan repayment has started and I feel the weight of "real world" descending all the more harder.
--The move, which is supposed to be a move to help my emotional state, has done nothing of the sort. My fault, though. I haven't been trying hard enough.
--I've realized, through some unintentional drama here, that I'm still as fragile as a butterfly wing in the emotional way (and probably showing my weakness by stating this here, but still).
--I really miss Indian food and Burmese food. Mexican food. Dearth of these in Honolulu. *sigh*
--I'm not doing Nanowrimo this year, which is sad, but not as depressing as the fact that I haven't even tried to connect with any of my Nano-fam (can't handle it right now).
--I really love snuggling with my Beary and wonder why I didn't discover how therapeutic it is as a child. Actually, I don't wonder that hard - I know why. My mother was sure that they made my allergies worse. By now, I'm not so sure.
--Frustration keeps occuring in scenarios between me and my family. *dejected*
--Spending a few days in Kauai. Planning to relax it up. :)